The Muses of Happiness

yellow rose in a blue vase

pain waves
back aches
sweat drips
eyes see
yellow rose in a blue vase

translucent blue glass
light as sky on a June day
profuse lemony petals
warm like butter
scent like peaches

yellow rose in a blue vase
color louder than sharp tensing spasms

eyes close
ears hear
throat noises
mouth roars
sound louder than red burning pangs

taste nothing but cold water
smell nothing but hot sweat
feel nothing but urges
feel nothing but
something holding me
something squeezing through me
something letting go of me

feel nothing but eternity timelessness unbeing allbeing

eyes open
feel nothing but warm wet skin
feel nothing but wet cool cloth

arms outstretch
feel something fragile
take something tiny
hold something wholly holy
see something alive
beginning being

See a boy.
Touch his hands.
Kiss his face.
Hear his wordless voice.
Smell his freshness.

sweat cools
back rests
joy waves
eyes look up
yellow rose in a blue vase
eyes see
eyes smile

I see.
I smile.

–for C